Never Give Up

There are times that I have wanted to give up. I won’t put up a front and say it hasn’t been like that at times. My path of life has been obstructed with craters in it. Many times I wanted to give up. At times I considered it my prerogative to stop the trudging I was doing. I let go and slid down into the massive pit of hopelessness.

I wouldn’t advise that journey. It generates more sorrow. The memories are recalled and it accomplishes nothing but regret. It may seem painless. Who wants pain right?? Life isn’t without hurt, torment, or confusion. At times it takes the negativity in life to be able to embrace the abundance of life. The blessings we receive. At times we might think that we are in this journey alone. I’m here to remind you that we never are.

God has wonderful intentions for our lives. At different intervals of our existence things are allowed to get us to where we need to be. It molds us into His plan and not ours. We have a narrow vision of our life. He sees the entirety of it. It resembles chaos at times. It becomes war when we try to fight it though.

Allow yourself to feel every emotion life tosses your way. I dare you to snuggle up to it. Prohibit yourself from running from it. Don’t duck from it when it comes your way. Suppress the urge to veil it with alcohol or drugs. Acknowledge it and live through it. Situations in life can be devastating at times. They don’t define us. They only shape us for the joyous things yet to come upon the horizon.

The moral of this…When life gives you oranges make orange juice….lemonade can be to sour. 

Have a Little Fun!!!

I'm a little music freak....this statement doesn't bother me in the least little bit. As Popeye would say, "I yam what I yam and that's all that I yam." Music engulfs me with the tides of every emotion imaginable. During each season of my emotions music has brought to the forefront the depth that I wanted...or needed to feel. 


Have you ever been meandering through an aisle and heard someone singing out with the song piped in the store? Maybe you are the type to think the person must not have been taught how to, "behave properly". Perhaps it brings a smile to your face and as you walk on by you wish that you would be brave enough to do the same. If you are a fortunate soul you allow your pipes to burst out in song with them. There is always that chance that you are the one singing out loud. If the previous sentence fits you I would pronounce you a little music freak as well.


My daughter will sing at the top of her lungs in all types of places....at home, in a vehicle, at church, on stage, anywhere she deems it acceptable to do it! When she was younger she didn't care where she sang. She was singing "Shake your Booty" at 18 months. Everywhere you saw her at home she would have this little wind up music toy that had all types songs on it. She would sing and dance just like I did as a child. 


The quandary that I face is remembering that I too stopped my little freak on at a certain age. I retreated into the norms of the world or maybe I just retreated. Packaged myself up in paper that didn't fit me with a bow on top that I wish I would have smashed. A smile spills forth as a imagine the picture that portrays. I did smash that bow! Little by little my music became more important to me. I wish the same for my daughter. My prayer for her is that it comes sooner then it did for me.



 I will continue to do what I do best and that is embarrass her with all the abilities a mother posseses.  When a music kiosk is waiting around and trying to blow the dust from itself I will be the one to do it. My trigger finger will get happy. It will start dancing around the touch screen and make that music blare out! My voice will be melodious and my feet will start moving.....in the back ground I will hear my daughters foot steps walk away as she moans, "mom", under her breath just one more time.

Let's Do This

March 19,2011


I have felt the desire to have a blog for a while now. It started with a comment to a friend on Facebook around a year and a half ago. I only thought my life was turning upside down at that time. Knowing the things I know today I would say that I subconsciously knew I would soon be faced with yet another roller coaster ride in my life. 


I want this blog to be about perseverance, the determination and yes even the stubborness that it takes to get through this gift we call life. At times I have wanted to throw my gift back to God and tell him that I didn't like what I was finding inside of it. I would tell Him, "Thank you very much but I knew what I needed and wanted". What I was receiving seemed more like someones rejected and recycled gift. Maybe even a gift that had been tossed in a dump for years and uncovered and handed out to me! 


Yes I do talk to God like He is my buddy at times. I guess that is how I have made it this far in life. Sometimes I think I will show Him who is the boss.....Have you ever tried that? It doesn't work very well! Not for long anyway. I have to laugh at myself when I think about it. I can do that today though. Just shake my head and laugh at my self for thinking that I know what I need. 


My life has been a dramatic, traumatic, suspenseful comedy. I've been bounced, beat, shoved, and flat out drop kicked in this life. There is a difference between those and me that can't find the rainbow because of the storm that engulfs them. It might be that word that is so seldom used today...gumption: the boldness of enterprise, initiative or aggressiveness, Guts, Spunk, Common Sense.


That is what this little blog is going to be about. So I hope you join me for the ride. No gurantee that it will be smooth travels. It will be enlightening. It may even help you know that you are not alone in the struggles of this "gift of life" we have been given. I believe that is what we all need. Someone that has the guts to admit that sometimes we want to catapult our "gift" back at God and tell Him that we don't like it one little bit!