Pain is a viable substance if
we are to grow in our character. Considering the fact of my singleness after so
many years I suppose this should be no huge surprise. Each relationship a
person is in can bring out the finest and most inadequate in us. When we are
more familiar with an individual, it is less likely that we will have to
stretch our minds as much. Not to say that we should not continue to grow in
the depths of every relationship that make up our life. To me it is honest when
I say the previous statement is an easier thing to do. As I forge into this new
life, I have already had the privilege of meeting some incredible people. There
are some I wish had never crossed my path, but I learned something from them
and me included .I would rather forgo on this part of life. I have been having
excessive moments in this past year where I was able to see things only after
they occurred. I have been feeling like a piece of clay, in the potter’s hand
that continues to be placed back on the wheel. The potter knowing that the
creation was beautiful but wanted a masterpiece instead.
I can identify the
experiences I have personally witnessed and I can become wiser because of them.
I can even forge ahead and push the limits of what I have learned. My problem
arises when I am unfamiliar with situations that occur. I know I may have
fought the whole way during the growth but I came out on the other side. People
surfaced during this time that I would give anything to go back and redo. If
only that was a possibility. The dilemma with relationships is that each
individual must be able to step it up to keep it going. If the other does not
want to be refined, the relationship will never work. We can remain as we are
or we can go through the fire and come out on the other side. It has been said that if a person is not
growing they are dying; I guess I have been doing a great deal of living
lately. I am ready to come closer to what the Potter wants. Growing as a person
is an awesome thing but I think I would rather grow with small smears upon my
vessel the Potter is molding rather then the handfuls of clay being removed and
replaced. In the time of the Creator, I will be put in the kiln because I will
be finished with this process. I will come out as He wishes. I just need to
stop fighting the process He is in control of.
